this is kinda new for me writing well real writing which i dont even know if thats what i did. it's more like i just said my feelings in a much more beatiful way. pain and sadness almost sound better when you say things and describe the pain no just i am in pain but "my heart breaking into a thousand pieces over and over being broken again and again and never healing." sounds better than just i am in pain. i dont know if anyone even read what i wrote on my last blog but i hope that someone might have and might let me know what you think. i dont really know though. so i dont think i will be writing for awhile if anyone was even reading this which i dont think that they were. i guess my life really is just to pathotic....